NiQue.

2008-11-17T01:18:00.000+08:00

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2008-11-04T01:42:00.005+08:00

Hey! I was in the train back from town

when i came across this guy sitting next to me.

He was reading the Newspapers and something

caught my attention. Its about life.

I forgot what it said, but well it meant a lot.

And i've done some thinking about it.

Life huh, well, i don't really treasure the moments

now cause there's nothing much to treasure.

Its all about work and how i meet different

people everyday. Some bossy, some nice,

some quiet, some unfriendly, some friendly,

some talkative, some who wants attention,

some who asks for opinions, everything.

And i try to ask where do i fit in.

In which i still don't know and i am still

wondering what kinda person i am.

I am gonna take time to figure out who

I really am, and who i wanna be.

Those days that I'll eat alone, will

be the best time to discover myself more.

Work tomorrow, sigh, I clearly don't

look forward to it, really.

It's tiring and tiring. No other words

to explain it. I've bought my high

waisted skirt today. Pretty happy!

It's looking pretty fine. Keith

chose it for me! Hahaha. Thank you Keith!

So Faith by Trella is stuck in my head.

Especially the part where it goes,

"Little boy who went on living out his dream

in peace living behind the friends who didn't care"

Has been in my head, and i thought a lot about

it. I've even gone too overboard that a friend

of mine said I'm thinking too much. Maybe i am

a little. PAY DAY ON FRIDAY! Wooh.

Something to look forward to. Hahaha.

Okay la, I'm gonna go get some sleep.

I need it, i need to be energized for tomorrow.

Long day ahead of me tomorrow, long day

indeed. Goodnight/Good morning!

Adios amigos.

Ps, I miss you Tracy, Alexsondra,

Cheryl, Izyan, Tricia, Russell, Basil,

Alex, Keith, Nes, Ben, Mike, Mark,

Manfred, Aiman, Feo, Bren, Shirley,

Edel, June, Stacy, Jac, Tash, Ruth.

Those i've missed out, i'm terribly sorry.

I really hope to see all of you'll soon.

Love you to the tiniest bit of my heart!

Cause we don't fucking care!

2008-11-04T01:35:00.002+08:00

1. Have you ever lost your cell phone?
` Yeah, once.
2. Do you eat ice-cream even if it's raining?
` Yeah, depending on my mood.
3. Do you have piercings? Tattoos?
` Piercing yeah, tattoos nah.
4. Do good things come to those who wait?
` Sometimes.
5. If you have a time machine, would you travel to the future or past?
`Both? Mostly past. Change myself a little.
8. Do you smoke cigarettes?
` .
9. Do you ask your friend's opinion before you buy something?
` Sometimes.
10. Have you ever whistled at a girl/boy before?
`Nah, can't be bothered.
11. Have you ever danced around in your room naked?
- Maybe?
12. Do you have a nickname for your crush?
` HUNNYBUNNY. Lol, inside joke. Tracy should know.
13. Would you ever audition for 'Singapore Idol'?
`Nah.
14. Is there anything you want to say to that person you miss?
` I miss you perhaps?
15. Have you ever stolen someone else's sweetie?
` I don't know, maybe? But i doubt it.
16. How do you end a phone call with someone you dislike?
` Hanging up. Sometimes, i don't even answer?
17. These past few days...
` Have been a tiring learnt journey.
18. Have you/would you ever throw a party when your parents aren't home?
` Done that once.
19. Have you ever gotten back with an ex?
` Nah, i haven't.
20. Do you like gossip?
` Hmm, sometimes. :]
21. Are you ticklish?
` Well yes. Keith should know!
22. DO you miss someone at the moment?
` Yeah kinda.
23. Do you live for the moment or for the future?
` For the moment, enjoy it while it last.
24. How often do you lie?
` I don't lie often, only when it's jokingly.
25. Do you plan for your outfits?
` Depending on what occasion.
26 . Do you keep your sweetie's stuff after you break up?
` Well, i have a box filled with an ex's.
28. Does shopping make you feel better?
` A thousand times better.
30. Can a person be possessed by a devil?
` Not that i know of, but I don't know.
31. Have you ever made the first move?
` I guess? Once, and probably will be the last.

2008-11-01T00:51:00.004+08:00

GROWING UP.

Helloooo guys! It's halloween.

At least, it was Halloween.

So Happy Halloween! Sadly,

I didn't celebrate it this year,

like i always do. I was at Homeclub.

For Trella, well, their album launch.

And i must say, I am very very very

proud of them. Okay, i'm not say

some 50 year old lady saying it.

But seriously, I am. A lot a lot

of improvement and well, they've

grown. We all have, in our little ways.

But yeah, i still remember the gig at

Melville. Oh god. Memories, where

I used to wear girly pink skirts and

a tank top. Oh god. Something, i shall

not remember! Anyways, back to Trella,

The whole Homeclub was filled with fans.

And they rocked the stage. Everyone

was happy, especially them. Obviously!

But well, the turn out was great.

Just hoped the turn out was great for you'll.

What really made me happy was that,

everyone was singing. Okay, not really me.

I barely know the lyrics, and I'm sorry for that!

But well, you know i love you'll.

Well more to come then Trella, well done

and congratulations!

Hi, work tomorrow. Tiring, urgh.

I don't look forward to it. Daaang.

It's okay, i shall think of the fun,

I will have after! Okay, i shall

get some rest, I'm having fever. :)

Adios amigos.

Moving by faith and not by sight.

2008-10-29T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hey, sorry I haven't posted for some time.

Too busy and tired with work.

Today was my off day. Headed to town

with Kyla, Nadene and Celeste.

I wanted to find high waisted shorts.

They had a few options, but well,

I'll still look around i guess.

Some stuff that happened during the week.

Liverpool beat Chelsea 1-0.

We're first if I'm not wrong.

Well we clearly deserve to be.

Grandmother's birthday on Saturday.

Grandfather's birthday on Sunday.

I'm looking forward to Trella's single

launch this Friday. Yay, go Trella! :)

Oh, it's Halloween too, but I don't think

I'm celebrating it this year. Okay then,

adios amigos!

So what, I got my rock moves

and I don't need you.

And guess what? I'm having

more fun now that we're done.

2008-10-22T00:18:00.003+08:00

Hello! Tracy my dear,

I'm posting, happy reading.

Haha, so I am so tired from work!

Now, my whole life is all about work.

I have no time for my friends,

and even if i do, it's only a day or 2.

Halloween's coming and guess what?

I have work too. I feel so tired talking

about it thinking tomorrow, is another

long day, I'll end at around 11 tomorrow. :(

I've done a lot of thinking, like what

a friend of mine told me i'll most likely

do when I'm alone. I thought about

the kind of guy i'll like to end up marrying.

Yes guys, don't be too shocked,

cause i already planned my wedding.

Okay, so back to the kind of guy,

and i'll like to share.

I'll like a guy who I can trust.

A guy that makes me feel whole.

A guy that never fails to make me

smile to myself when I'm alone,

making me look like a complete idiot.

A guy that knows what to say

and do when I'm not in my best moods.

A guy who i can rely on. A guy

i know will never flirt. A guy

who loves me for me. A guy that

treats me like a queen. There's

more but i can't seem to remember.

Some of you negative thinkers

might have thought while reading.

"Oh god, impossible to find someone

like that, she can keep dreaming"

But believe it or not, I've met him.

And i've never felt happier. I feel

like I need him every second of my

life. He keeps pushing me to stay

at work and tolerate the tiredness.

He's just someone i thought i could

only meet in my dreams, but it turns out,

he's real and I love him.

He'll never know i guess. Oh well,

Can't wait til i see him, which is this week.

Yay, adios amigos.

2008-10-18T01:16:00.002+08:00

Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way

Hey! So i was thinking and i really

need to say this. Who'd you think you are.

Thinking you'll get your way whenever you

want to. Well I'm sorry mister, it ain't

happening and it hasn't been!

It's time you got a life. Why'd you

love and enjoy seeing me at my worst.

Why'd you want me to feel like crap.

What do you want from me?

Seriously, you're annoying me now.

I've never felt so hurt and annoyed

from anyone in a long time.

Just so you know, you should really

stay away from me right now. The

sight of you makes me sick.

You should really consider leaving

me alone for now.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?

Okay, back to my normal life,

Work's been pretty hectic.

Taking everyday of my life.

And the whole day to be exact.

I feel so far from my friends.

Working 9 hours everyday,

is seriously not funny.

And not being able to sit and

relax since it's the sale period.

Oh well, money here i come!

I start at 2 tomorrow.

I need my beauty rest.

Adios amigos!

You make me feel whole,

and i love you for that.

I hate myself for losing you.

2008-10-15T10:16:00.001+08:00

So I had a job interview yesterday,

and I got the job! :D

So money, here i come! Wooh. :)

2008-10-13T12:54:00.003+08:00

When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]

Wow, is this true?

Somehow I think it is.

You guys just don't take

the hint don't you'll.

That there's a reason behind

this, behind every break up.

Regardless for the better or

for the worst. Most of the

time it's for the better la, but still.

She's thinking for you, about

how you're better off with.

Deep down in her, she's

hurting deep pretending

everythings okay. Gah.

Well this doesn't go for

all the girls though, just

some i guess. I'm blabbering

about love again, gosh,

I so need to stop.

Adios amigos.

2008-10-12T01:51:00.004+08:00

When you love someone,

And they break your heart.

Don't give up on love,

Have faith, restart.

Just hold on, hold on.

Hey, Saturday was not say really well spent,

but it was a fun filled day, no doubt!

So i met Keith and Amirul at Bugis at around

530, i was late! Sorry!

Headed to music garage where the gig was held.

A hardcore gig. AVA and FBE were playing!

Amirul left after FBE and Keith and I hung

out with FBE, really nice people.

After AVA, they were last band,

Keith and I left.

Sunday, today was a very chilled day.

I met Kyla and Sasha for mass at OLPS.

Headed to Siglap to have Mee pork.

Then Sasha left for some party,

Kyla and I took a bus to Parkway.

She bought a top and ice-cream!

Then we decided to have Lagoon for dinner.

Took a bus there, walked underpass,

and walked to a break water cause

we were really early for dinner.

So we hung out, caught up a lot,

told her my whole life sorry,

sorry bout that but yeah time well

spent with my cousin! :D

The beach reminds me so much of my past.

Like seriously! I know i've said this before.

But it really does, everywhere i look,

couples are everywhere! And it hurts to know

that I was part of that. Where my face

would light up like some lighted stick!

Oh well, the past is the past,

I guess we all have to move on and

try leaving the past where it belongs.

It can be my memory. A memory hard to

forget. A memory always stuck in my

head wondering where i'll be if i relived

my past. Nevermind, i shall look forward

to the future, cause i will make it a good one!

Well hopefully god's on my side, to make

it a good one! Positive thinking will get

me anywhere. :D Okay la, i really have

nothing much to say. Adiosss amigos!

2008-10-09T21:46:00.004+08:00

Hello! School has officially ended for me,

I feel sad somehow. It's just weird i guess.

I'm not ready into stepping into the real world.

Well, not really the real world.

More like a Private school. I'm not ready for that.

I'm definitely not ready losing all my classmates.

Sigh, i really hope we meet up soon. It's only been

2 days, and i miss you'll so fucking much!

It's so fast that we're all growing up and it kinda sucks

somehow that we are but well, we don't have a choice.

It's not like we can stay forever young when we want

to. Suddenly, I don't really feel God on my side again.

Oh well, i guess everyone has ups and downs.

It's just that, mine is mostly downs. I feel screwed.

I cannot take this whole bullshit that's happening.

Seriously, I need a drink. I need to feel happy.

I need to work. I need to apply for my private school.

I need the company of my friends. I need new clothes.

I need to love again. I need to stop hating.

I need to attend a party badly! These are my needs,

some of which i barely get. Right now, I agree

to my shirt. 50% Love, 50% Hate.

That clearly explains how i feel right now.

I still don't know what love is, I'm trying to find out.

But I'm sooner losing the touch of it. We're all

not in need of it yet. I'm only 16. I have great,

amazing, fun filled teenage years to live.

Love is an amazing feeling, i agree to that.

But what's the need of it when the company

of your friends are the most amazing.

But i guess, you do get lonely sometimes.

But well, there's no need for love just yet!

Patience! N's are finallly over! I'm

really glad. I'm not partying like a rockstar yet.

My parents are asking me to be back pretty early.

And that seriously sucks! It's sad that my 2 days

of holiday that has just started is a complete failure!

I don't feel like I'm on holiday. I just feel as if I have

school tomorrow that's why i have to be home so fucking

early. I don't even know why I have to be back early.

I hate it when they say, "I said so, thats why"!

I so fucking hate that line, i could stab it.

I feel so angry, i just want to release this anger.

But today went well, went to the coolest playground,

then swam, then played catching. Really awesome to

spend time with all your friends. Especially when you're

not in your best moods. They know how to cheer you up!

Alright, i think I'm just writing things, i don't even know.

So, adios amigos. Will post soon.

Don't tell me its over.

Don't kiss me goodbye.

Don't tell me its easy

The hardest part is leaving.

Don't you wonder why.

I'll never let you go,

Don't ever forget.

2008-10-02T00:36:00.003+08:00

Heyyy!

So today i went to Safra to study, bowl and lepak.

It went well, cause i did all threee.

First we all met at 12 plus? Then we took a cab

down to Safra. Where we headed to the bowling

alley. We then bowled for 2 hours?

We headed to the beach, to lepak and study!

Zon, Basil, Trish and Russell swam!

I was reading my Math book while they swam.

Will upload the pictures of today soon.

Pictures above are pictures from last friday!

So i went to the beach, and it brought back

so much memories of my past. The person i was,

and the people i had with me and i realized how

much all of us are growing. And we're growing too fast!

Argh, i wish time could stop. If only life was simple.

But then again, it would boring if it was simple.

Friend situations, well I'm good with all my friends.

We settled everything, she apologized.

And well, we talked things out. I don't think things

will go back to the way it was, but it's good enough

we're talking. Anyways, back to my beach part.

I got really emotional and a lot of thoughts ran

through my mind and about how i am happy now.

About EVERYTHING! Like seriously. Okay,

I'm so tired, the night before i slept at 5 am.

And i woke up today at 930!

I think the oceans are calling me,

AQUAMARINE'S CALLING!

Hahah, watched that last night, made me laugh

a lot! The part where aqua said, "We totally forgot

that this was your street" and the part where she says,

"Yes I'm having a lot of fun following you around"

Hahaha! She cracks me up. Okay!

Goodnight.

Adios amigos!

Love you a million.

2008-09-30T01:27:00.004+08:00

Hey! So N's started today.

The first 2 papers of the day, was horrible!

Science was a killer, seriously.

Then Math was at 2. After some

relaxation on how bad the Science

paper was, I went back to school with a clear mind.

Did my paper and fell asleep after doing it.

Hopefully i didn't get any careless mistakes.

So, after all that, headed to Siglap to meet

Izyan, Russell, Trish, Basil and Aiman.

Played and hung out. Some studied, some didn't.

Then we left at around 6.

Yay, suddenly i feel God on my side now.

I feel a lot happier then i was last time.

And i feel this feeling of excitement,

about to come my way.

I'm back with square 1 with love,

and well, lately, i can't say it's going bad.

Cause it's not. It's been going quite well!

So, i really look forward to life now.

Like honestly! I'm just gonna live life

to the fullest and enjoy it now as much

as I can, because a very bad strange feeling,

that it will not stay long. I hope it does though.

I'll like to think positive about this.

Negative thinking will get you no where,

seriously! It'd just make you feel really bad.

Like you don't deserve anything, but well,

everyone deserves to feel good, sometimes.

And sometimes, people who keeps giving

compliments, deserves some back!

Well, i hope I'm making sense.

I'm entering a world full of sweet

dreams, ponies and rainbows.

It's calling me, and i think i should go.

Adioss amigos!

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move,

Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,

Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,

Some try to hand me money they don't understand,

I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man,

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,

How can I move on when I've been in love with you...

I'm so in love with you

2008-09-28T02:12:00.005+08:00

And I ask myself,

who do i wanna be?

Do i wanna throw away the key?

And invent a whole new me.

And i'll tell myself,

No one, no one.

Don't wanna be,

No one, but me.

Hey! Yes, I don't wanna be anyone,

but myself and i got a very close

someone, that should be saying that herself.

I love you babe, and I like you just the way

you are. Everyone else loves you for who

you are. Being you, makes you different from

everyone and thats what makes you special.

So my N levels is in 1 day!

I am so SCREWED! I am not really

ready yet. I got 5 chapters to cover in 1 day.

Amaaaazing! It's okay Nique.

I'm gonna get 3 points for N levels and

I will cry on results day.

It won't be tears of sadness, it will be

tears of fucking joy! Yay! I so cannot

wait for this N's to finish. I wanna get

it over and done with. All these while,

I've been waiting for N's.

I just wanna finish this long wait.

And i'll run around and dance like a monkey!

i'll be soo damn happy i tell you!

Okay, sorry. Hahah. HI!

My life is going really really good i guess.

Studying and hanging out at the same time.

I mean hanging out when we have our breaks.

OKAY I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO SAY.

Gooodnight, Adios amigos!

Can you feel your heart beat racing?

2008-09-27T02:17:00.003+08:00

Hello guys!

I'm really really really really really bored.

I've never felt this bored in so long. Argh!

It's driving me nuts! I'm not doing anything.

So today, I went to Siglap to study.

With my study buddies! Hahahaha!

Okay, so tomorrow, I'm gonna study again.

This time, i think at home. I shall not go out.

My papers on Monday, and I am freaking out!

I'm starting to feel worried but not worried

enough to make me want to study.

Ya'know what i mean? So I have to stay

home and forced myself to study!

Lately, I am finding it difficult to sleep at

my normal timing. I'm sleeping at like 3ish 4?

It's not like me! I really don't know why!

But I'm just not tired! And now, I'm hungry.

But I'm scared to go make food.

Okay I'm weird. I think I'm getting sleepy.

Okay okay I shall stop blabbering now.

Goodnight! Adios amigos!

I'll be everything you ever wanted.

2008-09-26T01:13:00.003+08:00

Hey, I cannot wait for the 9th to come.

Actually the 8th would do just great.

I cannot wait till the 8th of October.

That's the last day of my N level exams.

And I'll be able to

PARTY LIKE A ROCKKSTAR!

Tomorrow i've decided to stay in,

wait, i have no choice. I have to stay in.

I've got 2 important papers on Monday.

I need to study. Sigh, I'm sacrificing!

But well, yes! I won't be going out during

the weekends anymore till the 8th.

After that, will be HOLIDAYS

till January where i'll start private school.

Okay, i have next year planned.

Hahaha, private at either MDIS or CHEC.

Both sounds really good, but i heard CHEC

is better. Cause they really push you.

I don't know, still deciding on which school.

But private it is! And I'm gonna do well. I have

to. Today, woke up at 330. Yes, this is what

you get when you slept at 4 the night before.

Talking to a friend of yours who is 1000

kilometers away from you. And now, I find

myself finding it hard to sleep and this time,

doing absolutely NOTHING. You have no idea

how bored i am right now. So hi guys!

I've been doing good, if you realized, this

is ONE HAPPY POST! Yay, one in a million.

Hahaha! Okay, i should go off and think

of all the rubbish i'll do during that 3 month

holiday! Adiosss amigos!

Honey honey, how he thrills me,

uh huh honey honey.

2008-09-25T01:14:00.005+08:00

Hey, school's officially over for me.

I'm on study break now, and I only

go back for examinations. Which

I have a paper on Monday. Maths paper

1 and Science. Physics and Chemistry.

Ah! I'm getting worried. I'm studying

now, or at least i was. I'm taking a break.

Everything is pretty alright to me now i guess.

It got better then my last post.

I'm sorry if lately this blog has been really

emotional. Cause i have my ups and downs.

But most of the time I'm feeling down.

It's amazing how a guy can just change your

whole life. Whether it brings joy or sadness.

Whether he changes you and help you focus

on your studies or makes you do all the bad

stuff you can ever think of.

I've never felt my life change for the better

before. I love the fact that he's around.

I love when he talks to me. I love it

when i receive replies. I love everything

about him, Oh god. I'm here, back to love again.

Whatever happened to love=fear?

I don't feel afraid of it, knowing that i'll

be sharing it with him. Ah, I feel the need

to see him. I feel the need to talk to him.

And i definitely feel the need to study!

Okay, i shan't think of this anymore,

I've got my papers to think about.

Wish me luck.

Keith, you're my best friend.

Always have been, always will be.

I'm here whenever you need me.

I'll be the best listener you can ever find.

Sorry, i just felt like saying that,

cause I'm damn grateful you're around.

I'm sorry if i keep on complaining to you.

But it really means a lot that you listen,

and help me through it.

A very big thank you, and I'm loving you,

AS A BEST FRIEND!

P.s. The guy i was mentioning about

above is not keith. As in, the in love part.

Hahaha, Keith's just there to listen to my

problems and I just wanna say a big thank you.

Adioss amigos!

Cause i've been waiting for a miracle.

2008-09-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

:'( Goodbye.

2008-09-21T23:35:00.002+08:00

I wasn't jealous before we met
now every woman I see
is a potential threat
and I'm possessive
it isn't nice
you've heard me saying
that smoking was my only vice
but now it isn't true
now everything is new
and all I've learned
has overturned
I beg of you

Don't go wasting your emotion
lay all your love on me

It was like shooting a sitting duck
a little small talk
a smile and baby I was stuck
I still don't know
what you've done with me
a grown-up woman
should never fall so easily
I feel a kind of fear
when I don't have you near
unsatisfied
I skip my pride
I beg you dear

Don't go wasting your emotion
lay all your love on me
don't go sharing your devotion
lay all your love on me

I've had a few little love affairs
they didn't last very long
and they've been pretty scarce
I used to think that was sensible
it makes the truth
even more incomprehensible
'cause everything is new
and everything is you
and all I've learned
has overturned
what can I do

Don't go wasting your emotion
lay all your love on me
don't go sharing your devotion
lay all your love on me

Hey my weekend, I won't say fantastic.

But good enough. I guess i did have some fun

here and there. I watched Mamma Mia,

and i like it! Something about it, makes me

like it. The songs i guess, and how they dance

to it. Awesome stuff. I have 8 days left to N's.

Where the exams really start. 2 days till I'm no more

in Kc. I stop going back for normal lessons

from Wednesday onwards. Aww man!

The feeling gets excited but deep down, I'm sad.

Okay, maybe I'm sad about everything.

I haven't been in my happy mood lately.

And i don't know why. I wish i did though.

But things did get slightly better.

And i think i like it now then it was before.

Well guys, i'm off to bed.

School tomorrow! Adioss amigos.

Take a chance on me.

2008-09-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

Name one person who made you laugh yesterday?
Shirleey.
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Schooling.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
On my way home
What is something that happened to you in 1994?
I was 2!
How many different things did you drink today?
Water, peach tea, coke, green tea.
What color is your hairbrush?
Blue
What was the last thing you bought?
Praaaataaa.
What was the last gift you received for your birthday?
Chocolates
What color is your front door?
Brown.
Where do you keep your change?
?
What was the weather like today?

Hot.
What is the best ice cream flavor?
Baileys!
What is something you are excited about?
Tomorrow!
When was the last rainbow you saw?
Err, i can't remember.
What size shoe do you wear?
4
Do you have a little sister?
Nope
Are you very random?
Sometimes.
Do you want to cut your hair?
Nah.
Do you have some bad habits?
Yeah
Do you talk a lot?
Yeah.
Do you watch The O.C.?
Yes! Adam Brody, yummy.
Does your screen name have an "x" in it?
No.
Do you know any Stevens?
No
Do you make up your own words?
Sometimes.
Are you ticklish?
Ohmygoodness, yes.
Are you typically a jealous person?
Sometimes. :D
Do you have plans for today?
Yeah, done it.
What song are you listening to now?
6 feet under the stars-All Time Low
Do you chew on your straws?
No.
Do you have curly hair?
Yeah, i was born with it.
What is the next concert you're going to?
Nothing yet.
Who is the worst person in your life?

No one just yet.
How many times have you cursed today?
Countless.
What is something you say a lot?
Fuck off
What is the last thing you ate?
PRATA.
Do you have work tomorrow?
Nah.
Is marriage in your future?
Yeah.
When was the last time you said "I love you" to somebody?
Yesterday, to my bestfriend.
What should you be doing now?
Studying.
Do you have a nickname?

Yeah.
Are you a heavy sleeper?
Depending how tired i am.
When was the last time you used a skateboard?
None.
What is the best movie you've seen in the past three weeks?
Nothing. :(
Is there anyone you like right now?
Mmhmm.
When was the last time you did the dishes?
I can't remember. Danny's party.
Are you currently depressed?
Nah, i highly doubt so.

Hey guys, I was bored and found this on

friendster, so i decided to do it!

Today was awesome! I went bowling.

Yes guys, i suck! But surprisingly,

I improved a lot then i expected.

I had Spares and Strikes.

Woooh, so not like me!

After that, we headed to Simpang for dinner.

Seems like every Friday we're going there.

Hahah, but i enjoy their company.

I meet them almost everyday.

Thank you Basil for paying for bowling.

I really wanted to go for Trella.

But no one wanted to follow me.

So i changed my plans.

I wanna watch MAMA MIA!

Cannooot wait, JackieNonis!

I don't care, tomorrow we're soo

watching it! Alright,

I'm in a very hyped mood,

adiosss amigos!

Take me somewhere where

I've never been before.

2008-09-18T22:31:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, I can't say everything's perfectly

well in my life. But it's getting better.

And I know that i've got my friend's back.

And that they'll be there no matter what.

So lately, i thought about changing myself.

I won't mention about what, but i thought

maybe it's time for a change. I don't really

like the person I'm becoming or in fact, the

person i already am. So I'm changing.

My heart is skipping beats and my hands are

shaking as i type this post. Cause i don't know

if i should be happy or if i should not,

but I know that I am really happy about this!

And i've never thought it'd happen.

As I'm in my good moods, my best friend on

the other hand isn't. Her sister leaves tomorrow.

I can't find of any way of telling her that

everything's gonna be alright. I mean i tried.

I think I just suck la huh? But I want you

to know that i'll always be here for you if

you've got problems. I'll be here like how you've

been there for me. I love you, you should know

that. And i'll do anything to get your

mind off things alright? We must hang out

Saturday, and i will make sure you have

the time of your life with me. Be it whether with

the boys or without. It's totally up to you! :)

Tomorrow's a friday! Yay!

The weekend is nearing and i smell fun!

Bowling in the afternoon after school.

Then Keith and the rest at City Hall in the

evening. WOOH! Sounds like a great plan.

Adiosss amigos!

Best friend, the lyrics below is for you. :)

I promise you,

I'm always there.

When your heart is filled

with sorrow and despair.

I'll carry you,

when you need a friend.

You'll find my footprints in the sand.

2008-09-16T20:41:00.002+08:00

Today went pretty well.

I headed to Siglap after school since everyone

was there. Had Mee Pork with Zonnie, then

went back to meet everyone else again.

Played the name game, taitee whatever

card games we could play. After that,

we just lepaked. Then we decided it was

time for POM! An awesome game really.

So we played it, and it got bored cause we

could hardly hide and we got tired.

We were playing in our uniforms.

Well, we then decided to play police

and thief. Hahah! Cheryl, Zonnie and me,

being the only 3 girls were the police.

It was a damn tough job i swear!

I was soo tired! Sweating non stop.

Besides playing games that made us run,

we all decided to jog back! Hahaha!

Yes, when we're all sweaty, wet and tired.

I think today was well spent.

It took stuff of my mind for the meantime.

I love you guys, the people i spent today with.

Cheryl, Zon, Russell, Alex, Manfred, Ryan, Mark,

Limbo, Aiman, Basil, Yogi.

That's basically it, the people who knows

how to cheer me up. And my study buddies!

I cannot wait to meet you'll and have the time of

my life again. Well, today was back to childhood

games. And I guess, I must say, I miss being a kid.

I'm Off to watch Gossip Girl's episode 3 of Season 2.

Adioooos amigos!

Here's my heart, treat it with care.

2008-09-15T19:23:00.002+08:00

I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it.

Lyrics above clearly explains what i feel.

It explains everything. Only a few of you'll

might know what I'm talking about.

I love this song, it really knows how to make

me emotional. Haha. Okay maybe not a very

good song huh? But well. The words

are exactly what I'm feeling. It hurts so much.

And everything scares me. From life to love.

Just yesterday, i had someone follow me home.

And it was really obvious. I ran home.

But he ran up the stairs and looked for me.

I was scared as hell. You have no idea how fast

my heart was beating. I'm traumatized, I don't

think i wanna go out anymore. Hell no!

That's not stopping me from going out. I hope.

But well, think positive, at least i'm safe.

Once again, my thought speaks about love.

Love huh? What is it actually? I googled it,

and this is what it said, "One word frees us of all the weight

and pain of life: That word is love." - Sophocles

Is it? I searched it on Dictionary.com

and this is what it said,

"a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person."

Is it? I'm wondering why it isn't love = fear?

Cause that's what I'm feeling.

I'm feeling scared of love.

Afraid of what will happen.

Afraid of what the other party will say.

Afraid of being neglected.

Sigh, I feel like i feel the hatred more then

I feel the love. That's a bad sign. Really.

But during this period, i've got my friends

back and I gotta thank you for that.

Jackiee Nonis.
Stacy Brodbeck.
Shirley Kettler.
Edel Goh.
Safith Bafith. (Sorry I don't know your surname)

Thank you, I can't express my thanks for you guys.

Really. Thanks for being there and helping me

through this whole period of shitty feelings.

Only you guys know how i feel, and you guys

really know how to help me through it.

I love you guys, and I know i'll always have your backs.

I just wanna let you'll know that because of you,

I'm becoming stronger, to let go of the feelings i'm

holding on to. Or at least, i plan to.

My exams are nearing every single day.

And i've got no more time to waste.

It's getting scarier day by day.

It looks like I'm scared of almost everything.

Nonok. Did i get it right? In other words,

I'm a pussy la k? I'm afraid of what's planned

for me. I'm afraid of what might happen.

I'm afraid of the future. I'm afraid of who

I'm gonna meet in the future.

I'm afraid of everything. Even my feelings.

'God, if you're hearing me.

I really need you by my side right now.

I need you to show me the right path.

I need you to tell me what to do and what

I shouldn't do. I need to feel you here.

Please speak to me.'

I'm gonna be strong! I have to!

Just give me time.

I'm off to study.

Adiosss amigos!

I miss the lips that made me fly.

2008-09-10T22:20:00.010+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN ME!

Hey guys! Today is awesome.

I'm terribly sorry for the oh so emotional post.

It's just that matter of time where i got emotional.

Today was great, time spent with people i pretty

much love the most in this damn world.

Well, not all, but most of the people.

Headed to Siglap to hang out.

They surprised me with a cake, how sweet!

I love you guys!

We cut, and played the name game and more.

After everything, headed home.

Had steamboat for dinner. Mmm.

And well, here i am.

Not to forget, my party that i had on last Saturday

was great, i enjoyed every single bit of it.

Thank you mummy and daddy for making

this year the best birthday party ever!

The deejay, food, cake, dance floor, room

was really awesome. I couldn't ask for more.

Tomorrow practical, N's.

Hahahah. Well, the people i met today,

they sure cheered me up with every little

thing they did for me. It really touched

me. I could never ask for more.

Alright then, goodnight. :)

Let's hope my little wish comes true.

Adios amigoes!

Pictures from the party for my

birthday celebration!

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY NIQUE!

2008-09-09T21:39:00.003+08:00

Hey ho lets go!

Special you, I miss you. I miss the fact that

i'll always laugh when you're around.

I miss the late phone calls even when I'm tired!

I miss getting a goodnight message before sleeping.

I miss getting a morning message when I wake up.

I miss having you around and talking about silly rubbish.

I miss having you to tell all my problems to.

I miss having you to tell me what's wrong and what's right.

I miss being my old self, where everything else mattered.

Where fights bothered me a lot. Where love existed.

Where I was so fuc*ing happy and I didn't

need anyone or anything else.

Where I could just wake up with a smile on my face.

Knowing the day will go just perfectly well.

Where I look forward to my birthdays for surprises.

Where everything was perfect.

Everything fell apart, and I'm certainly not

happy about where i am now.

I'm in the worst state of perfect. I'm not even close.

My birthday's tomorrow, and i feel the same.

Definitely not excited and definitely not interested.

I don't know what's got into me.

It's about finding decent guys in this small sunny island.

Which is highly impossible, cause the decent ones

are obviously taken. And the other decent ones

just doesn't want you. But when you dated one,

and let that one go, that's a mistake you'll never

forgive yourself. Not even on your dying bed.

You'll live your days, months, years in regret.

Thinking why we could have been so stupid.

But then again, we try to leave it in the past.

But it haunts us once in a very blue moon.

But the haunting stays for a really long time.

Till you finally realize its time to let go again.

Love life like how everyone is doing, at least

I tried to, plenty of times. Try to enjoy life to it's

fullest. Telling your friend, that everything

will be just fine when they go through break ups.

I'm actually the worst person to ask, cause i tend

to hold on a lot. For some reason, I don't let go.

I hold on the feelings and feel as if I didn't get my heart

back in return. Like it's still in someone's hands stabbing

it and laughing like a 'muahahaha' or something.

And it'd just hurt like no one's business.

Do i believe in love? I ask myself that everyday.

But i tend to have a very negative answer to that.

It so happens that I no longer believe in love.

The world is becoming a horrible place.

Where betrayals and horrifying things are happening

Where people don't care what you feel,

they just think for themselves. Where

kissing someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend

could score you extra points.

Have you ever thought of what sadness you've

caused into the person's life?

Like how much pain the person goes through after

that, I mean i have no links whatsoever,

but I'm just saying, think!

Think, before doing something

really stupid and regretting your whole life away.

Because you're gonna live with it everyday of your

life knowing you didn't want this for yourself.

And the person you become, is worst.

I'm letting this all out, cause i really can't stand it

anymore. It's too extreme, too painful.

I wake up everyday with baggy eyes

and go to bed with tears in my eyes.

Not my kind of perfect days anymore.

Don't question me about it,

it'd just make me feel worst.

Well, goodbye.

My heart can't get any worst.

Can i have it back please?

2008-09-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 10th

BIRTHDAY GEORDAN!

Hey guys,

My holiday has just started,

and it's already ending.

My N level papers went alright i guess?

Malay listening went horrible! Seriously.

English was great! I did it within an hour.

And slept for 20 minutes after checking twice.

Pictures below are from Tracy's parent's

anniversary that was last Saturday.

No papers tomorrow, Lepak tomorrow.

I bought tickets, plus i need to do some

errands for the party on Saturday!

I so cannot wait! I got a purple dress!

Okay, the last post was super depressing.

Looking negatively. I decided to think positive.

Thinking negatively won't get you anywhere.

Okay, hopefully i do well for N's.

I'm gonna head to bed. Long day later.

SOOCCER AT THE CAGE!

My brother's birthday.

Adioss amigos!

I'll be your safe ride home,

when you call me.

I'll be everything and more,

when you call me.

2008-09-01T18:26:00.000+08:00

Why hello there.I was talking to Stacy online.

About what i felt. And she replied me,

words I won't mention. I told her that I was sick and

tired of believing in a hope that doesn't

exist. And seriously I am!

I'm tired of feeling in love, I'm tired of going

through unneeded arguments. I'm not only sick

and tired of relationship problems. I'm sick of

the problems I'm having with my friends, or

friend for that matter. I have no idea what

wrong I did to you, but if you think i care,

I certainly don't! If you realise, I don't ask

what wrong/mistake i did to you.

Because i know for a fact, i did nothing.

I'm so sick of people's judgement.

I mean sometimes a rumor might be wrong.

Why do people even start it?

In the first place, why do people believe it?

Without even hearing it from the person

involved? Sigh, I'm so sick of this.

That I'm willing to let you go pass me everyday.

Every time i see you, you make it so much

easier to forget that I was even your friend.

To those who believe that rumor,

It's up to you cause I know for a fact,

It's not true because I would never do such

a thing to a friend of mine.

Wish me luck for Malay N's tomorrow.

Adios amigos.

Tired of believing in a hope that doesn't exist.

2008-09-01T11:13:00.000+08:00

Hi, Hey, Hello!

My weekend was awesome!

Friday, celebrated Ben's birthday

in a hotel, which we left early for

dinner and Baybeats 2008.

We were then told later that only a few

people were allowed in cause of

hotel management. Whatever crap that is.

So we headed home. I stayed Zon's house.

Saturday, I went home to change first.

Went to meet Jackie, and headed for Baybeats

again. Silhouette was AWESOME!

We watched Cardinal Avenue, then left

for Tracy's party at about 8?

Then we ate, danced and talked till 12.

Where my godfather picked us up for home.

Sunday, Mass with Colin, Kevin, Nicolas.

Headed home to do invitations, mom asked.

Headed out for dinner for my grandmother's

birthday. Baybeats for Caracal!

They didn't put up the show i was expecting.

But still good enough. Their new song

was so Instrumental. Their changed song,

I couldn't even recognize it when they played.

N levels is tomorrow, Mother Tongue.

I'm freaking out! Seriously.

But i don't know how to study for Malay.

You can't. That why, i gotta use my brains,

which barely has any MALAY in it!

I'm screwed! Lepak this Friday.

Haven't heard them in awhile.

But from today till Friday,

I'm gonna study.

So till then,

ADIOS AMIGOS!

I'm keeping the promise i made,

I'll love you the rest of my life.

2008-08-26T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, below are some edited photos

that i edited earlier today.

Today, surprised Edel with a

small get together at Shirley house

for her birthday .

Rush over to her house to set

up her house. We literally ran for

a bus, YES GUYS, we ran for a bus.

It wasn't funny at all. People laughed

at us, LAME. -.-

Edel, Shirley and Alicia came back

at like 330? We were hiding in Shirley's toilet.

I was holding the cake. Hahaha.

She got a shock, like planned.

Then had pizza for lunch and then

ate the cheesecake before leaving.

Yes guys, we paid all this for Edel.

That's cause we love you.

Took some jumping pictures in class.

Really funny but I'm lazy to upload it,

so tomorrow or something.

Okay anyways,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDEL GOH MUI SIAN!

And adios amigos.

You tried to move on,

but you're perfecting failure.

2008-08-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to a special

someone in my life right now that

feels that maybe life isn't at its greatest.

Babe, please do not worry.

I could tell in school that you were

trying to hide your emotions,

but you weren't hiding very well.

Everything will be alright yeah?

I assure you that.

You've got all of us behind your back

and we'll always be there for you.

You don't need a man in your life

to make you happy.

Trust me, I think i should know best.

It's alright, everything is falling apart

now but i swear it'd become better.

It just takes time for everything to

settle. This is making you stronger.

I'm not saying you're not strong,

It just makes you a stronger person.

And during this period, you'll get to

know yourself better, understand your

likes and dislikes. It might be something

to cry about 1 night, but 2 nights?

I highly doubt so babe! It's not worth it.

Trust me, it's not worth your tears.

Everything will go back to the way

it was. I love you, you should

know that.

2008-08-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

She leaves for UK tomorrow

morning. Sigh babe, I'm

really going to miss you.

I'm gonna cry buckets.

No one to tell my problems to

in school everyday anymore.

No one to tell who I hate&why.

No one to tell who I like.

No one to tell who I met during the

weekend and how much fun I had.

No more local gigs with you anymore.

And speaking of school, I've

got 1 week till I'm officially

out of the school except for Exams.

I'm gonna miss Secondary

School days and I'm pretty much sure of it.

Talking to Stacy about what's happening

with school and her leaving, made me

tear a little. It's about how much

we've grown. From small little Sec 1's,

the noisiest batch, to Sec 4's.

More matured, at least i think.

Everything that has happened

in our lives makes us

who we are now.

From friends leaving to break-ups,

We become stronger.

We become stronger to let go.

To let it be, because such is life.

And we can't change that fact.

I think whatever has happen is my life,

happens for a reason and I've come

to accept it. Because I feel that

I'm a stronger person.

I've become to know myself more.

What my wants and dislikes are.

The mistakes i've done,

It's just a learning journey.

It's not as exiting as it was,

but my time will come.

At least i hope.

And i've got my friends to thank.

Always being there, always supporting

me, always meeting me to cheer me up.

I love you guys! I do.

I'm off to bed,

I've got to wake up early for the Airport.

Adios amigos.

If life was a movie,

would mine be a good one?

2008-08-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

Marry me a little

Love me just enough

Cry but not too often

Play but not too rough

Keep a tender distance

So we'll both be free

That's the way it ought to be

I'm ready

Marry me a little

Do it with a will

Make a few demands

I'm able to fulfill

Want me more than others

Not exclusively

That's the way it oughta be

I'm ready

I'm ready now

You can be my best friend

I can be your right arm

We'll go through a fight or two

No harm, no harm

We'll look not too deep

We'll go not too far

We won't have to give up a thing

We'll stay who we are

Right? ok then

I'm ready

I'm ready now

Someone marry me a little

Love me just enough

Warm and sweet and easy

Just the simple stuff

Keep a tender distance

So we'll both be free

That's the way it oughta be

I'm ready

Marry me a little

Body, heart, and soul

Passionate as hell

But always in control

Want me first and foremost

Keep me company

That's the way it oughta be

I'm ready

I'm ready now

Oh how gently we'll talk

Oh how softly we'll tred

All the stings, the ugly things

We'll keep unsaid

We'll build a cocoon

Of love and respect

You promise whatever you like

I'll never collect

Right? ok then

I'm ready

I'm ready now

Someone

I'm ready

2008-08-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

These past few days aren't

the best days of my life.

I've been sick since Sat

and i feel like crap!

Coughing my heart out.

My results are back.

Well most of it,

and i can't say i did

well. Not as well as I

want it to be. 4 points for

prelims in total.

My aim was 3.

Okay i'm gonna take my meds

and get some rest like what ive

been doing the whole day.

Adios amigos.

2008-08-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hey there!

Prelims are finally over!

Wooh, not a time to celebrate yet.

We are one step closer to N's.

Stacy's leaving this Wednesday.

Me and Jackie spent some quality

time with her and Safith(at times).

Took not as much pictures as

I thought we would, but yeah.

Some pictures, it's below.

Anyways, Trella was good.

According to them, Bong and Saf,

they suck. -_-

Bong's guitar strings kept snapping.

But well, i think they were alright?

After the gig, lepak-ed with Stacy.

Talked to her and all that.

I'm gonna miss her.

Went to meet Tash.

Godfather picked me up and we

dropped Stacy home.

Sunday, oh the usuals.

Mass at 1230.

Lunch at 130 opposite church.

Met Ben, Cheryl, Russell, Ryan,

Fabian at Katong to play pool.

Tash and Nicolas was with me.

They played pool, i watch.

I don't know how to play pool.

Then later headed to Siglap

to lepak at Starbucks.

It reopened! Yay.

Then had dinner with Tash's

and my family + Nes.

Then now i'm home.

I feel so fat and full after dinner.

I might have ate the least but i'm

still full and i said i might get a

beer belly with the amount of

food i'm eating!

Enjoy the pictures!

Alright then,

Adios amigos!

SINGFEST DAY 1 FROM MY CAMERA

You are so much more then wonderful.

2008-08-12T21:38:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!

My birthday is coming,

as some of you'll might have known.

I already decided what's gonna happen.

Those I'm pretty much close to,

or those who i've gone out or talk to

frequently, keep 13th September free!

I'll e-mail individual invites,

The party is catered food,

so uninvited guest is not going to

be tolerated. It'd be a very chill party.

For those taking N levels,

here's a break after English papers are over!

So yeah, more updates soon.

MARK YOUR CALENDARS!

It's my yearly event! :D

Adiosss amigos!

Hey there one in a million!

2008-08-10T12:14:00.000+08:00

This day, one year ago i got into

a relationship which i didn't know.

Hahaha. But it's over now la.

My dear friend, Stacy

has 10 days left in this

country some of us call home.

We just celebrated the country's

birthday yesterday. We were on the ECP

when we saw the fireworks.

It wasn't say FANTASTIC,

but it's alright.

So experiences, have i met any new ones?

I think I have, choosing the right friends,

i plan to keep after i leave school,

which is a few weeks from now.

So i've decided, both guys and girls.

Who to keep and who not to keep.

Other then that, an experience im still

willing to experience. Hah!

Like, just something.

And we say we wanna live life

like those stars in a movie.

I take my word back.

Something happened to me

once and i am kind of

traumatized! Hahaha.

My heart skips a beat every time

i think of what had happen.

Okay, be shock guys.

Im gonna whip out my books,

and head to my Zons house to study.

Pictures from singfest in my camera

will be up very soon. Hang on Min!

Adiosssss amigos.

Never gonna give you up.

Never gonna let you down.

Never gonna run around and desert you.

2008-08-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

Hello guys,

First of all, sorry for the delay.

Second of all, this is definitely not

all of it. It's mostly from the 2nd day

and only a number from the 1st.

The first will be uploaded soon,

I'm just too lazy to scan my polaroids

and upload pictures.

Plus i've been really busy with school

and all that. Prelims, it's alright i guess?

It's not that bad to the extreme where

I'm totally gonna fail it and repeat my sec 4

if N's is the same. Naw!

Anyways, Singfest was awesome!

Like seriously awesome.

It's the usual fun i get with all my friends.

First day, i went with some school mates

and Lisa. They're really nice and it's a pity

i only got to know them at my last year

in Kc. It's alrighhht! Anyways, I had

fun to New Found Glory, Lost Prophets

and not missing out, SIMPLE PLAN a.k.a

Pimple Plan (named by Min)

Hahaha. They brought back memories.

My Primary school day memories.

Which is awesome!

I enjoyed their set.

I hate the sound man!

He totally screwed up

Panic at the Disco's

"But It's Better If You Do"

My all time favourite song.

Sigh, i bet they're never coming

back. Oh well! :(

Ohhh! i touched NFG's singers hand

after all that hard work in the mosh! :D

And i got a picture with Pierre and some

of Dearest's band members.

So yeah, Singfest was best concert

of the year 2008 so far.

Im sure if Paramore were to come,

they're sure to beat Singfest. Hah.

Yay, tomorrow there's a party!

Nes's sister, I don't know her,

but well, Im going.

Today was spent with my mom,

aunt, cousin and brother.

Which is a good thing,

cause I'm hardly going out with them

or family besides Zon, Trish, Tash

that is. We bought nothing much!

My mom and I are fed up.

Everytime we want to buy something,

we can't. When we can, we can't

find anything nice to get. Argh.

Anyways, daddy came home today.

Really good to have him back!

But i have this STRANGE feeling,

he's going somewhere again.

Work, -.-

N levels are coming up pretty soon.

I'm starting to Panic, like

Panic at the Disco.

I want an omelette with no egg.

Mee soup with no mee.

Sorry, Shirley la! Hahahaha.

I'm getting lame, okay.

Adios amigos!

I don't need a man to make it happen

I get off being free.

I don't need a man to make me feel good

I get off doing my thing.

I don't need a ring around my finger

To make me feel complete.

2008-08-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Oh yeah

You're the remedy I'm searchin' hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

Been feeling lost
Cant find the words to say
Spendin' all my time stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be
Oh next to you, and you next to me
Ohh...
I need to find you
Yeah

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (I need to find you)
I gotta find you (yeah)
Your the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you(I gotta find you)

Log on to kill this message.

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (I need to find you)
I gotta find you (I gotta find you)
Your the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Yeaeaahhh
I gotta find you...

I love this song, sweetest song ever.

Singfest was great, will write and

post picture of it really soon!

Adios amigos!

I gotta find you.

2008-07-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

Hey, my weekend went pretty alright?

Happy Birthday to you Mama!

And also Happy Belated Birthday to

Sarah and Feo. They celebrated their

birthday on Wednesday. Yes, on the same day.

So right now, my emotions are all mixed up.

It's like i don't know how to feel anymore.

Maybe i do, just quite afraid.

Every time it just leads me back

to one person, which kinda suck.

Cause honestly, i don't wanna go there

again. Every time i think about the past,

it gets my heart beating faster than usual.

And i tell everyone, YES GUYS,

IM FINALLY OVER *ahem*!

And they'll go yes, im so happy for you.

But deep down, i know for a fact

that i'm not. *Ahem is someone

you guys don't need to know.

This post is not going to be about

him, hell no.

But it seems like it already is.

I don't know if i'm still the same person

that i was last year, but i definitely

did a change to the way i look.

Hawhaw! I cut my hair.

Like finally, short with bangs!

Pretty awesome la! Finally a change

in hairstyle. No really, FINALLY.

It's been like this the first time

i met all the guys in my life.

Hahaha! Seriously.

So well, a new change and it is

quite weird since i'm not quite

used to it yet. Patience is the key.

Oh yes, about NEW EXPERIENCES,

I haven't met any yet. Time will come,

i'm sure of it. Prelims is this Thursday.

Wish me luck guys! Haha!

Am i in love?

NAWWW!

I don't like love when it comes to

long relationships.

When it just comes to loving a friend.

Then yeah i am.

But believe me,

IM NOT LIKING ANYONE.

Shocckingg huh?!

But well, i'm not ready to be in one.

I'm not willing to sacrifice anything yet.

I'm going to England for Christmas.

At least that's the plan for now,

Well maybe ill find like

a really good looking guy,

with really good sense of humor

and with a really nice heart. Well nique,

YOU CAN KEEP DREAMING!

But nevermind, i like the thought

of that. Hehhh! :)

Stacy's leaving for England,

And i'm gonna meet her there

when i go, she's gonna take me

around and to meet all her awesome

new friends there.

SINGFEST! Ohmygod, pleaase

let me know if anyone of you'll

are going on the first day.

I've got no one to go yet!

But i would really love to.

I'm allowed to go for both days.

Yay for me, but well.

I need people on the first day first!

Common it man! Let me know

if you're going k? I'll be extra and

tag along! Heh.

To all my friends out there,

I'm loving you!

Thanks for being there

through my ups and downs.

You should know what i mean la.

Tolerate my pettiness!

And keith, nothing's going on

with Yan (That's how

ben pronounces

his name) Hahahahah!

Well, im off, thinking about

whether i should head for mass

tomorrow since i went for evening

today with my familyy!

And dad, i'm missing you.

Can't wait for you to come home

in August!

Anyways, i'm going off.

Adios amigos!

Here are some pictures

about my week.

Most of it was from the

performance we had on Monday!

Indian Dance.

Just take my hand

and we'll never let go because,

if we're together now

we'll be together then.

Step back and see me walk away

then watch me run right back.

I'll show you how to love again.

This is the best idea i've had.

2008-07-18T15:05:00.000+08:00

HEATH LEDGER WAS SO AWESOME

in the movie.

I swear, it's the world's

great loss that he died,

and left us to somewhere better.

Hopefully.

But he was really good in

Batman's movie.

Really. I love the joker la.

He was awesome. Okay I'm sorry.

But Heath Ledger was really really

really really really awesome.

Ahhhh. Still unbelievable that

he died. :( Nevermind.

Adios amigos.

2008-07-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

Sigh, in less than a month,

my dear friend Stacy will leave

Singapore for England.

I'm gonna miss you babe,

I really wished you didn't have to go.

I'm gonna miss the small talks about

everything and I'm definitely gonna

miss telling you my problems.

Staaacy, don't go. :(

Please!

Adios amigos.

I'll do anything for you to stay.

2008-07-14T18:17:00.000+08:00

Hey,

If you guys were wondering,

I'm fine.

I'm feeling quite down.

Maybe people was right,

I was stupid to do a wrong move

that i can never go back to the time

where i was happy and i enjoyed my

life to the fullest. Not that i don't

now. It just feels weird.

I guess I'm lying to myself again.

About what i feel which is what

i definitely don't want to feel.

I guess at this point of time in life,

it'd be the hardest. Especially where

major exams are around the corner

and i have no where to go after that.

I haven't decided, if only i was

a guy, and i could choose the Army first

before my studies like what an old

friend on mine did. I haven't decided and

i don't know if i can decide.

They are so many things in life that

i want, really. But it is whether

I am able to achieve my goal.

I'm afraid of life now.

I don't know what to look for

and what to expect.

I don't know what to feel and

what not to feel.

I don't know who to hang out with

and who not to hang out with.

I'm not saying the company

I'm hanging out now is bad,

Afraid that i'll make friends

in the new school next year

that might be bad company.

I don't know what i feel right now

actually. So many things

running in my head,

that i don't know how to

simplify it to just one word.

I don't know what to do now,

really. I'm lost and I'm afraid.

I don't wanna feel like what

I'm feeling now cause honestly

the feeling does suck,

a lot.

I'm so sick of lying to myself.

Telling me what is not true,

telling me that I'm over it,

when I'm totally not.

Trust me, i do regret what

i've done but there are times

in life where i need to look forward.

Starting from today, I'm gonna look

forward and forget the past.

I'm not gonna care who you date,

who you made pregnant,

who you love,

who you're getting married to,

who's making you happy,

who's getting you the stuff you want.

I've done my part for those amount of

months, and i think i did a fair job.

I did try to make it work, but it was

a pretty boring relationship.

I guess this is what's in store for us.

To experience new things, people,

surroundings and many more.

This is probably going to be a really

good experience that i'll never forget.

An experience i'll learn from.

Well, something to look for in life now.

AN EXPERIENCE.

I'm going out of hand,

I'm writing stuff i don't

know why I'm even writing.

But well, don't question me

about this, cause I'm really

trying to forget everything.

Adios amigos.

I finally found,

what i've been looking for.

2008-07-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hey, i've been good.

Really good in fact.

My weekend was pretty

A W E S O M E!

Friday, party at East Coast.

Saturday, Lepaked at East Coast.

Sunday, Gig at Far East Square.

The words long-term

relationship doesn't really

exist in my world now.

I have decided, it won't

exist til later.

Now, it's time for my friends.

Where they are first priority.

Where they are the only people

or guys i meet.

Where love doesn't really need

to exist.

Where relationship arguments

won't happen.

Where i don't think about guys.

Yay! I'm looking forward for tomorrow.

Stranger, grr.

Happy Youth Day ya'll!

Adios amigos!

I wanna be there for you.

Be someone you can come to.

2008-07-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

I AM DAMN

DISAPPOINTED. :(

Okay, i thought maybe i had my Singfest

days worked up, since both days are

300 bucks and it cost a lot.

My parents agreed to pay for 1 day!

But on the first day, there's

Melee, Simple Plan and Lost Prophets!

And the second day has

PANIC AT THE DISCO!

Grr, I'm annoyed.

I cant decide which one to go.

But ill definitely want to go

on the second day to see Panic,

that's A MUST!

I'm gonna beg for both

days, it's a must! Argh.

I will do anything,

to make this right again.

2008-06-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

Meet Mr. Grumps!

A mixture of pictures from

Sarah's sweet 16 at Sentosa Cove

and Mark and Matt's confirmation.

School, boring!

Indian dance, didn't really stay long

today, went to siglap to lepak with

a few people. Not much, but still.

So what is love?

I really don't know anymore.

Afraid that i'll never feel.

It's freaky, scary and

something i really don't know

if i look forward for again.

I'm so sick of feeling what

i'm feeling now that i just thank

god i'm not in a relationship anymore.

I hate this feeling, it just gets

you f**king emotional

whether you want to or not.

i still can't believe what's happening.

Really, I'm speechless that

the only words i can say right now is,

"I hate him" but my real question is,

do i really hate him or do i actually love him?

But i mean, whatever i'm feeling,

nothing can be done to change anything.

Whether it's love, or hate.

We're all still living in the same world.

Where hate and love goes round.

You love a minute and hate an hour.

I don't know if you understand me,

but well, it feels as if,

you can go on hating someone longer

then you actually love the person.

I just don't understand this after

break-up thing where the individuals

go around the world hating each other

or completely blacked out from

each other's lives. I mean,

i kept friends with 2, Ian and Mark.

The rest is just history.

I just don't know where i'm heading to.

But i sure look forward to my happy ending.

Where this feeling, will never ever come

back and i'm done with this kinda emotional

crap, where i am the happiest person on earth.

Patience is a virtue.

I guess i can wait.

You guys enjoy school.

Adios amigos.

How about enough?

F*** you, F*** off.

2008-06-29T02:09:00.000+08:00

Hey, my first week of school,

was complete boredom.

I have less then 70 days to

N levels and a few days

away to my orals,

both English and Malay.

Today nothing much actually.

Just headed to Zon's house to

complete my summary and then

headed to Kembangan with Shiv

to meet the guys who were dota-ing.

Later, headed to Ben's condo for

them to drink while I just sat and stared.

Me and Ahmad was talking about 2006.

How much i miss it, it was an awesome year

and a year i'll never forget.

Where it was like over 20 people in the

group we hung out with EVERYDAY.

Yes guys, everyday.

It was just amazing. Chaotic!

Found out something i really didn't want

to find out and i certainly don't think

i should be caring. But i kinda do.

It hurts a little, when it's not suppose to.

But I SHOULDN'T CARE!

Relax, take it easy. Best song for these

kind of timings, right faiz? Hahaha.

Inside thing, anyways,

i'm should be sleeping.

Mass tomorrow.

Goodnight all.

Adios amigos.

RELAX, TAKE IT EASY.

FOR THERE IS NOTHING

WE CAN DO.

2008-06-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

GUYS! SCHOOL IS STARTING

TOMORROW!

I AM NOT EXCITED. :(

Argh, the horror and terror is beginning

once again after a month's break.

I finish at 115 everyday except tuesday,

which is alright i guess?

Argh, this means hardcore studying

and hardcore paying attention,

with doing homework and stuff.

Ohmygod.. I am certainly not ready

for school. No way.

It's okay, i must say,

my holidays were awesome!

The last week especially.

It was a blast and im sure the

december will be twice as good.

Okay guys, im gonna be good and

do my homework. So if you're still

in school, which most likely you will be.

Have fun tomorrow!

Adios amigos.

Drama club romance.

2008-06-21T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hello! 2 days left of the holidays

before the horrible, torturous thing

is back to kill us students.

In other words, school.

Argh, just thinking about it makes

me sick. "Mommy, i'm feeling sick!"

Best line ever to get out of school.

So my last few days of the holidays

have been alright. Not say that fantastic

but it's good. Today, Sarah's sweet 16.

Looking forward to it, the sound of it,

just makes me excited.

Jackie stayed over last night.

The pictures are funny.

I, nique is so SCREWED!

I have tomorrow left to complete

my homework and best of it all,

I haven't touched a bit of it at all!

I am SCREWED! Yes, SCREWED!

Argh, ohmygodd! Nevermind.

Do first, think later. So i'm gonna

leave now and have some fun before

i suffer doing some homework!

Adios amigos.

2008-06-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

7 days to school.

I'm definitely not looking forward

to it. We're left with just 1 week.

I gotta make it the best,

but with holiday homework

and everything, i doubt it'd be

that good. Studying tomorrow with

Tracy and Jac. I think!

Last weekend,

was the best weekend of the holidays

and the freakiest.

Seriously! Hahaha!

But i had fever on Sunday night.

Like, damn high.

Today, bowling with Zon.

She's improving and i haven't bowled

in ages, years in fact!

Haha. Alright i'm just updating my blog.

Adioss amigos!

2008-06-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

Hey! So my days went pretty well.

But im getting rather sad,

we're left with just 2 weeks of the holidays

and then we're back to school.

With hardcore studying and preparations.

It's also scary that i don't feel the pressure

just yet! I need to hit the books

once this holiday is over!

Past few days aren't exactly what i call,

fantastic. It's been really slack.

Too lazy to head to town,

and so i've been around the East area.

Haven't really seen Jac around and

my camera's with her. Hopefully

she comes tomorrow for the beach.

For some relaxing time again.

Before we stress ourselves for the exams.

So this Sunday, off to siglap with Zon

for homework. Next week, english project.

Not really what i call a fantastic holiday.

I still miss 2006. :(

Outside Gashaus everyday,

for gigs. Damn, those were great.

With over 20 people.

Those times are just amazing.

I miss everyone, some split.

It's okay, i'm looking forward

to New Year's Eve where

we all will spent it together, again.

Alright, adios amigos.

No telling what tomorrow holds.

2008-06-09T01:11:00.000+08:00

You try to hold on to days that you wish we had.

Now this was supposed to by my hit song

But then I wasted all on you.

Tomorrow is near and I'm not gonna waste it too.

2008-06-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

Haha, so today.

Nothing much happened actually.

First time since friday i didn't

meet the guys. Wanna know why?

They were dota-ing.

But it's okay. I met Jackie,

then headed to Outram to pay some fine.

Then headed to town to meet lana and Mieko.

Tracy, Jac and Melanie came later.

Hung out at Wheelock.

Then just got home.

Tomorrow is that major big party.

I'm so looking forward to it!

The sound of it is just amazing.

So the past few days,

I've been following the guys shopping.

Hahahaha, yes, the Great Singapore Sale.

They've been shopping like mad!

More then i do actually.

Hahah. The guys are,

Ben, Mark and Keith.

But it's damn funny la.

Hanging out with them.

Anyways, i'm gonna pump myself

up for tomorrow.

Adios amigos!

Some say, It's all fate

But I say we control our lives

And if my destiny should outbest me then that's fine.

2008-06-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

Till it was a battle cry

I'll come back when you call me

No need to say goodbye

2008-06-02T14:04:00.000+08:00

Hi holidays, blast.

My weekend planned last Thursday,

Some didn't happen.

The party for example,

We had a small pizza party of like 6-8 people?

The close ones.

Then at night, stayed over my cousins.

Saturday, homeclub for a really short while.

Didn't really feel comfortable there.

Met Ben, Mark, Shiv, Shirley, Stacy, Trish, Zon

for shopping at Wisma.

Then headed to Homeclub again.

And left for home not long after.

Sunday, home til 7?

Dinner with family then headed to Parkway

to meet Manfred, Mark and Alex.

Then headed to East Coast.

Met Zon and Trish.

Cabbed with Alex home.

Today, Monday.

A new week.

Time is passing so fast.

Way too fast.

It's sad.

One week of the holidays are over

and 3 weeks left.

Sounds a lot, but with time

passing really fast,

It'd come and go soon.

After the holidays, i'll be

drowning myself in books

for the upcoming important

exam of my life.

N LEVELS.

Okay, i shall go out and enjoy

myself right now, and suffer

later. Adiosss Amigos.

Hey there, one in a million.

2008-05-30T00:59:00.000+08:00

What’s the biggest argument you’ve ever gotten into recently?

OVER CHEETOS WITH KEITH,

It was stupid yet really funny.

But really annoying.

Hahahaha. Okay. hi.

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S!

Today, Sentosa with the Girls.

Tomorrow, party for no reason.

Saturday, have not decided.

Sunday, lunch with Tash's family.

Wooh, i'm in no mood to go back to

school. After n's. Walao. 3 months. :)

Alright. Bye. Pictures of Mark's and Matt's

confirmation is above. Not many yet.

I'll have more. Alright, adios amigos!

Slow down, you're coming too fast.

2008-05-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hey ya'll.

My weekend has been pretty well.

Friday, Omar's parrty.

Saturday, Hung out & watched a movie.

Sunday, mark and matt's confirmation.

And the photos will be up pretty soon.

I've been good, really good actually.

Mind's taken off and im slowly

getting used to this and it doesn't

really affect me anymore.

I'm gonna live life to the fullest,

have the best days of my life.

It's the holidays. Yay, finally.

The long waited holidays!

It's gonna be a good one.

I'm gonna make it be a good one.

Yay, im off to bed now.

I've got to watch my cousin act tomorrow.

Adios amigos.

Oh when i said i needed you so much,

I lied.

2008-05-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

So i just watched the season finale

of American Idol, and i am satisfied

with the results. I mean both the Davids

are really good, but David Cook deserves

it. So school, BOOOORING!

Last day tomorrow before the

Holidays! Ohmygod,

I am very excited.

But i have tons of homework.

It's okay. Studying and have fun

at the same time,

It'd be good, right?

N levels is less than 120 days away.

and im still slacking.

I'm gonna start studying soon.

Study buddy anyone?

Alright, adios amigos.

2008-05-21T12:40:00.000+08:00

Okay hi,

So you all must have thought,

the break-up was for myself,

but it isn't. It was for him. I

have been lying to all of you,

the reason i told you, isn't the

real reason. I finally told leon,

and i feel so much as ease.

I miss him, yes but he doesn't

seem to feel the same way.

Which i guess, is alright.

i mean it's expected right?

So life, has been really tough.

I haven't been liking it a bit.

It's a pain in the ass, and it's

hurtful but i guess, i did the

right thing, not for me, but

for him. My results aren't what

i say fantastic but i guess its okay.

School's been boring, and i

didn't go today. Not feeling too

good. I mean duh, i don't feel good

everyday, but today's just worst.

Sigh, i wish i could take back that

day, but i can't. I mean i wish i could

rewrite it. I guess i can keep

wishing cause it'd never happen.

Shirley said, "Nique i think you

lost the guy who had loved you

the most." I can't say i disagree to it.

Sigh, i'm going off.

Adios amigos.

I may not always be perfect,

but i'll always try.

2008-05-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

You've laid yourself to sleep
I never said this wouldn't hurt
You gave up everything
I never said I'd give it back

I know you'll never change
I won't be good enough for you
I know you'll make it through
I'll never be around to see

I guess it's too late,

to say i miss you so.

2008-05-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

I PASSED MY MALAY.

For the first time,

I am damn happy la!

I got 52, woohoo.

I did quite badly for maths.

Not like what i wanted to get.

Scored well for English.

Scored okay for Science and EOA.

I need to pull up my socks

and start studying.

I took mid-years really lightly,

and now, im regretting.

But thank the lord,

it's not in N levels.

School's been okay.

Today was the first day i went

after 5 days. Wooh.

I even forgot which side

my pocket was supposed to be.

Haha! Maybe i was just blurr la.

Anyways, here's this conversation

me and Nitra had that was quite

funny, at least to me. It was.

Nitra: I did so badly for my mid-years.

Nique: What nonsense you got A for Science, at least you passed.

Nitra: No, i still did so badly.

Nique: At least you didn't fail a lot right asshole.

Nitra: How many times you want me to tell you i got hole.

Nique&Stacy: Huh? What you talking about, hole where?

Nitra: HOLE. you know hole?

Nique: OHMYGOD, nitra you're damn lame.

then we all burst out laughing, it's such a joke i tell you.

i love you nitra!

Okay la, adios amigos!

I will write you a song,

Thats how you know my love is still strong.

I will write you a song,

And you'll know from the song,

that i just can't go on without you.

2008-05-13T12:27:00.000+08:00

Met Shirley at Downtown at 12 plus.

Changed and started looking around

for our classmates, nit, stacy and prabhmeet.

Decided to go on that bicycle thing since

it high up and we might be able to spot them.

True enough, we spotted them.

They were late, they just came.

Haha. They changed,

and we headed to the playground.

It was fun la.

I hate the bicycle ride though.

Im afraid of heights.

I know now, that i really really am.

Hahaha, i started screaming vulgarities

at Shirley if she went fast,

Im terribly sorry.

Haha, after that, we had dinner.

We took millions of pictures.

Seriously. Hahaha!

Some of it is above.

Haha. More in Stacy's camera.

Anyways. Yeah, had fun.

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers.

FRIDAY AND SATURDAY

HAPPY SWEET 16 ALEXSONDRA!

Well her party was great,

not like i thought it'd turn out to be.

The music wasn't what i can danceable.

They had grease though,

my all time favorite show.

Hahaha. Stayed over and the next day,

went over to Tracy's to shower,

then headed to town to watch the movie,

What Happens In Vegas.

Really good.

I needed the laugh.

Hahaha.

Adios amigos!

Run baby run,

they'll tear us apart,

if you give them the chance.

2008-05-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

I miss Ruth, I miss Ruth, I miss Ruth.

I really really do.

I miss being able to tell her my problems.

I miss her always cheering me up,

every time I'm down.

2008-05-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry

2008-05-05T13:56:00.000+08:00

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)[?]

The Bottom Line

An interesting travel opportunity is coming your way today, and you should take it.

In Detail

An interesting travel opportunity is coming your way today, although at first it might not seem like a trip you'll want to take. But you should. Let go of your expectations and pre-conceived notions about where will be a fun place to go to. If you have the time and the money, you should give this new adventure a try. Exploring a new place and having a new experience is never anything but a growing experience. You'll have more fun than you could ever imagine.

Wow, sometimes, this freaks me out.

It's true sometimes. Hahaha. Okay,

I'm off to study. Seeya!

Adios amigos!

Ooh darling, cause

You'll always be my baby.

2008-05-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

Okay, i was just thinking back.

And a friendship since P3 is going

down the drain. Really easily.

And i guess i did feel a little upset

about this at first, but i'm slowly

getting over it.

7 years of friendship is gone

so easily, and now,

i'm rather scared of making friends

or at least trusting them and

making them my bestfriend.

Okay, my weekend went alright.

Friday, met keith and all at Far East.

Bosco was there, that boy is back!

Saturday, met Jac and shopped.

Then headed to Lepak's gig.

Then chilled at Far East.

Hahaha, Today mass, lunch, home.

Sundays are always boring,

It's nothing new.

Maths Paper 2 tomorrow,

good luck to me.

Alright, i'm off to study.

Adios amigos.

If you're not really there,

then i don't wanna be either,

I wanna be next to you.

2008-05-03T12:38:00.001+08:00

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

MMMMMMMM

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have a our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Gave my love to him Finally

MMMMMMMM

Finally, Finally

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening, happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

Ohhhhhhh, Finally, Finally, finally

2008-05-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

She's definitely a keeper. (BFF)

I'm still deciding if i wanna watch the match.

But on second thought, i do. It's liverpool.

Watching with a friend doesn't sound so bad.

But my question, who's that friend?

Haha. It's okay. I'll watch it myself.

And shout like no one's business.

It's gonna suck, yes, but it's okay.

If i watch it with my dad, he'll get annoyed.

I'm gonna use my Liverpool jersey.

Should i? Oh what the heck.

School = boring.

Tomorrow = NO SCHOOL!

Nique = ecstatic!

Tomorrow,

I'm gonna study since the next day's science,

and i suck so bad in Chemistry.

Then head for Leon's birthday dinner.

Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

I'll upload the pictures of the cake soon.

Adios amigos!

My heart it beats, beats for only you.

My heart is yours.

2008-04-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

Keeper.

Haha! Thanks for warning us mark.

Keepers

Hey! Polaroids from Jeevan's party.

It was pretty awesome,

but i realise BOSCO wasn't there.

Where is Bosco may i ask?

But everyone's saying he's grounded.

Oh well, Hope to see you soon Bosco.

So school, borrrrrringggg!

Maths Paper 1 tomorrow and i have

time to post a post.

Well, Dad's birthday tomorrow.

And Leon's on Thursday.

Studying tomorrow at Siglap i think?

Or who knows where.

I HATE MID-YEARS.

It like takes my life for 2 whole weeks.

URGH. Bye, adios amigos.

I won't go home without you.

2008-04-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

Haha, So hi!

My weekend's going pretty.

Party on friday.

Shirley stayed over.

Chill out at the chalet on Saturday.

It was a really a good way to

spent my last weekend before

the exams.

Soo, i've met new friends.

Which is good.

And i've lost some.

Which is bad.

It's amazing how you had her back

one day and the next day you don't.

It's also amazing how you can be

best friends with that person one day

and just be strangers the next.

School's starting to feel horrible,

but I'm guessing it's okay since

it's my last year and this will be

one year i'll remember.

Friends to keep, and friends

not to keep.

I cant wait for New Year's Eve!

heh.

But you put on quite a show

really had me going

but now its time to go

curtains finally closing

that was quite a show

very entertaining

but its over now,

go on and take a bow.

Ps. This lyrics has nothing to

do with my life.

I just like the lyrics.

ADIOS AMIGOS!

2008-04-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

Hey, so i haven't been posting,

due to mid-years nearing.

To be honest, i haven't started

studying but this Wednesday,

i will.

My weekend went pretty okay

i guess? Lepak on Friday,

Prayers and dinner on Saturday

and Sunday, mass.

Tomorrow i've told myself,

I'll study science. Which i will.

Okay la, i have nothing much to say

actually. Adios amigos.

Wishful thinking.

2008-04-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

Marissa: I love you.

Ryan: Err thank you?

Marissa: Your welcome?

HAHAHA sorry it was a damn funny scene.

i watched 9 episodes of OC.

Took up a lot of my time.

Okay. Adios amigos.

2008-04-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

Why hello there,

Been a week since i last posted,

due to prayers and school work.

So i might just be going to Heaven

now, I've been reading the readings

and everything during the prayers.

And I'm proud of myself,

I'm a pussy when it comes to reading

out loud, trust me.

I need another break from school.

I cannot wait for the school holidays.

Not that i'll be out or anything.

Just need a long break from school.

It's making me really tired and lazy.

I've been watching Season 1 of OC.

Yes, I'm there.

But i've watched Seasons 2-4.

Aren't i just smart.

So, I'm pretty exited.

Everything's going pretty well.

Me and Shirley's situation.

A month + ago, we fought.

Thank god it's over.

I swear i wouldn't know

where i'll be without her.

Especially now, she only

understands me, like

why i feel like this and that.

She's probably getting irritating

cause I'm like repeating myself

everyday.

Mid-years coming.

I don't think i can go

for Lepak this friday.

It's hardcore anyways.

I mean other bands.

We'll see what happens.

Aight, I'm off.

Adios amigos.

I know i don't deserve

the love you give me.

But now i understand that,

If you want me, i must

be doing something right.

I got nothing left to prove,

and it's all because of you.

2008-04-09T20:39:00.000+08:00

This was last year,

or the year before.

School was alright.

School invasion tour.

This is not fair.

Why doesn't my school

participate in this?

Aiyai, West Grand,

Firefight, Oh the love.

I came home and

slepttt, i was too tired

to meet Leon.

He was suppose to come over.

I got too tired i guess.

Argh, okay,

I'm getting scared now.

N levels is seriously damn

close already.

I don't think I'm ready yet.

I don't know if i'll ever be.

Someone please,

Give me the motivation to study.

Heard N's is easy.

But i wanna do well.

It's 148 days away,

Alright off i go,

Adios amigos!

I love you more then anything in the world.

The world's your kite, go fly it.

2008-04-07T22:45:00.000+08:00

Here jac, like i promised.

The other pictures were too

unglam.

I have a bigger picture,

ask me k love?

Hey ya'll.

School was a bore AGAIN.

Had a really good long chat

with Shirley about our lives,

and who have upset us and

whatever and i told her,

how i felt about everything.

Yay. I'm so glad we're okay.

Anyways, after school,

went to get my stuffies.

Hehe! I look forward to

school tomorrow actually.

Oh yeah, we also talked

about how min and clifford

suit each other really well.

Like they look damn good

with each other.

Okay I'm off to study.

Test tomorrow.

Mid years is 14 days away.

and

'N' Levels is less then 149 days away.

ARRGHHH!

Adios amigos!

You got me begging you for mercy.

2008-04-07T19:36:00.000+08:00

Hey ya'll.

Sometimes i wonder,

if my life were to be a movie,

would it an interesting one?

With all the ups and downs,

i certainly think so.

Back to school, TSK!

What a bore!

Anyways, I was looking around

for the moisturizer for my face.

Since it's all pealing.

It's getting better actually.

Not as bad as it was on Friday.

Anyways, went to the EXPO fair

yesterday with Jackie, Melanie, Tracy

Leon, and Jac (Another Jac).

It was fun.

Got a whole new set of stationary.

Okay, i need to go do my homework.

I have a lot.

N levels is less then 150 days away.

Wow, i'm getting scared now.

Haha, alright then.

Adios amigos.

He's the center of her whole world

2008-04-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

I can see,
The planets are aligning for me,
But I cannot read them,
For the future's gone,
And all behind me.

Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
A soft breeze blowing,
I am wandering now,
Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
These are the days I live now.

You said, turn around
So I cannot see your tears falling,
You don't make me proud,
Now I see there is
A new day dawning.

Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
A soft breeze blowing,
I am wandering now,
Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
These are the days I live now.

On nights like these,
I could fly up to the sky above me,
Like superman,
I would change the course
Of earth below me.

Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
A soft breeze blowing,
I am wandering now,
Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
These are the days I live now.

But I can see,
The planets are aligning for me,
And I dare not breathe for then
The clouds will come and then deny me.

Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
A soft breeze blowing,
I am wandering now,
Through this world,
I am wandering, wandering,
These are the days I live now.

2008-04-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hey, So here's the pictures from,

the Topshop Party 2008,

that i went with Stacy.

So i feel good that i'm barely

in school. Seriously.

I need a break from the people

in my school.

I need to get my mind figured.

Maybe I'm thinking too much.

But maybe I'm not.

i've changed recently,

i know but nothing can be

done now, can it?

I think I'm better off like this.

Trust the littlest people is the

best thing to do right now.

People who are on your side.

People who cares.

People who would help you.

Not people who tells you what

to do and what not to do.

I'm not referring to anybody.

Believe me.

Okay then, Adios amigos!

I can see the funny side of life.

2008-04-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

Today is the start of April.

I remember, a year ago,

at this timing, about 12?

Where i played an awful

trick on my ex-boyfriend,

Hahaha, he, forgetting it was

April fool's, fell for it.

I can't think of anything to

do this year,

Hahahaha! Later,

I'll be heading to the Ferris Wheel.

Yes, im going on it. :D

My grandmother got tickets.

I promise to tell you how it is.

Anyways, Happy April Fool's day fools!

Adios amigos!