Thursday, October 09, 2008
Hello! School has officially ended for me,
I feel sad somehow. It's just weird i guess.
I'm not ready into stepping into the real world.
Well, not really the real world.
More like a Private school. I'm not ready for that.
I'm definitely not ready losing all my classmates.
Sigh, i really hope we meet up soon. It's only been
2 days, and i miss you'll so fucking much!
It's so fast that we're all growing up and it kinda sucks
somehow that we are but well, we don't have a choice.
It's not like we can stay forever young when we want
to. Suddenly, I don't really feel God on my side again.
Oh well, i guess everyone has ups and downs.
It's just that, mine is mostly downs. I feel screwed.
I cannot take this whole bullshit that's happening.
Seriously, I need a drink. I need to feel happy.
I need to work. I need to apply for my private school.
I need the company of my friends. I need new clothes.
I need to love again. I need to stop hating.
I need to attend a party badly! These are my needs,
some of which i barely get. Right now, I agree
to my shirt. 50% Love, 50% Hate.
That clearly explains how i feel right now.
I still don't know what love is, I'm trying to find out.
But I'm sooner losing the touch of it. We're all
not in need of it yet. I'm only 16. I have great,
amazing, fun filled teenage years to live.
Love is an amazing feeling, i agree to that.
But what's the need of it when the company
of your friends are the most amazing.
But i guess, you do get lonely sometimes.
But well, there's no need for love just yet!
Patience! N's are finallly over! I'm
really glad. I'm not partying like a rockstar yet.
My parents are asking me to be back pretty early.
And that seriously sucks! It's sad that my 2 days
of holiday that has just started is a complete failure!
I don't feel like I'm on holiday. I just feel as if I have
school tomorrow that's why i have to be home so fucking
early. I don't even know why I have to be back early.
I hate it when they say, "I said so, thats why"!
I so fucking hate that line, i could stab it.
I feel so angry, i just want to release this anger.
But today went well, went to the coolest playground,
then swam, then played catching. Really awesome to
spend time with all your friends. Especially when you're
not in your best moods. They know how to cheer you up!
Alright, i think I'm just writing things, i don't even know.
So, adios amigos. Will post soon.
Don't tell me its over.
Don't kiss me goodbye.
Don't tell me its easy
The hardest part is leaving.
Don't you wonder why.
I'll never let you go,
Don't ever forget.
/9:46 PM
